Day 69 – February 28
Ξ February 27th, 2008 | → 0 Comments | ∇ Babies, Johnny, Junior, Lana, Other People |
I don’t think I’ve ever been so pissed, scared, upset and panicked all at the same time as I did this morning. But how would you feel if you went to see your babies and they weren’t there?
That’s right. They moved them. They moved them and didn’t even tell me. I swear if I had checked on the iphone before I got there and didn’t see them…. I need to get the webcams set back up and I don’t give a crap whether they like it or not. The new nurses (do you call guy nurses, nurses?) don’t seem to understand. They aren’t ready for the new room. God I just want Linda and Amanda back. I want familiar surroundings where I know things are all ok.
It’s crazy how different it is in the step down unit. The preemies here don’t need to be monitored as much so you really don’t have as much of the beeps and alarms the NICU had. Things aren’t as critical here and parents are supposed to learn to take a larger role. I just don’t feel like they’re ready for this. Hell, I don’t know if I am. Both of them are doing pretty well sustaining their body temperature on their own but they do still need a little heat in their isolettes. That’s one of the things they have to be able to do before they can go home, be in an open crib.
They say we’re still a good ways from that.
One thing I am starting to look forward to here is feeding them. I see a lot of bottle feeding going on and I can’t wait to be able to feed them myself. Right now they’re both still on the feeding tubes but we should be getting closer. At least I think they are. Unfortunately the nurses here don’t have as much time to answer my questions. I really don’t feel comfortable here and I need to call June. I want the cameras before I leave for Vegas or I’m just not going.
Why does there seem to be so much more crying here?